Doing OK

Dulu khen, waktu ai keje ngan orang payah betui la nak lari-lari ni.
Pagi dah merushing nak siapkan anak pi sekolahlah, nak siapkan breakfast lah, nak siapkan diri la. Pastu drive meluru nak kejar punch card.

Camni cakap la, those days, pagi was a blur of events.
Keje, stress, keje, stress, pastu balik petang nak lari pulak. Then masak la, sidai kain (yup, sidai kain waktu malam), lipat kain dan sebagainya.
Gile exhausting.

One of the reason I quit my job, among many other reasons is to run freely in the morning.
To get rid of that early  morning rush. To get a grasps of things clearly.

Now when I wake up, I can cook breakfast for my children, get them ready for school, send them off and then go run.
Nothing is in a hurry, unless that is, one of the kids tetiba nak pi toilet the last minute and then kami kena kelam kabut nak kejar the school bell . Haha.

Tapi itulah, bila dah lari almost every weekday morning, maka akan timbullah a few days yang bila bangun pagi rasa malasnyehhhh nak lari.
Taim tu lah kaki rasa berat, dada rasa sesak, perut rasa bloated, macam-macamlah alasan nak ngelat lari.

But I remind myself, this is why I quit.
 I wanted this.
 I WANT this.

So terpaksa la suck it up.
Dulu elok gaji masyuk, nak berenti for this.
Dulu senang nak ambik cuti, nak berenti for this.
So, lari je lah.
And 99.9% of those lemau days, by the last mile, I'd be feeling alright.

Nak duit, boleh dicari kan.
Nak masa untuk diluang for something that we really love, mestilah kena sacrifice something along the way.