Monday, September 29, 2014


I used to be asthmatic. I tell people I have childhood asthma  because I've stopped using the inhaler since I was 13.
But every now and then, it surfaces. My wheezies, I call them.
Most of the time, they're really mild.

But mild as they are, they do hurt.

Have you ever felt that? The tightness in your chest that causes you to not think about anything else except the knot in your lungs? The struggle to get a decent breath in but only able to do it halfway?
And the sound of the pain. The slow fluty almost inaudible sound of your struggle, each time you inhale. Almost inaudible as your lungs scream for air.

I get my wheezies at approximately the 18th minute in my runs. I get my wheezies at exactly the same location at every run. It's like every run I start, I anticipate the buildup to the 18th minute.
It doesn't matter what I did before the run, what I ate or drank, whether I've warmed up or
not. It will hit me, bam! almost everytime at the 18th minute.

But I don't stop, even if my lungs beg me to.
I run it out. 2 breaths in and 2 breaths out. Rinse and repeat.
Put one foot in front of the other. Rinse and repeat.

Thankfully my ordeal will end 5 minutes after. 5 long minutes after.
And then I'm home free.

Is having the wheezies the pits? Yep.
But it's a reminder not to take my health for granted. It makes me grateful of whatever health condition I have, I have it easy compared to others.

As painful as it is, it will pass.
In life too, whatever hardship we face, it will pass.
The long uphill climb, it will pass.
It will all pass and we will all eventually be home free.

*ahkak terasa nak jiwang hari ni yeww

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Taiping Run 2014 !

So, like I said before, we're back on our feet running.
Not much, just about 5K a day around the neighborhood.

It's kinda nice, when you run by and people you know raise their hands or give us a honk in recognition. Makes us feel like local celebrities kejap hihi.
Gile perasan.

We're now up to 30 minutes of running continuously. Might not be much for most of you but for us it's something big after ages of not running. Seriously back to square one, especially me, after my pregnancy.

But tu la kan, the racing bug tu mula la menggatal nak gigit. Baru je nak mula balik, start new, mula nak lari relax-relax dulu, I see this on FB

How in the world could I ignore this? Right there, smack in my backyard..
Saje je tau.

So join je lo.
3 months to build up to 12K

Drama much?

Saturday, August 30, 2014

New Beginnings

Hello guys.. ada lagi orang ke?
Sorry for the long hiatus. I had to adjust myself to a few new changes in my life.

I've finally quit my job (yay!). Some say I'm stupid for leaving at the position where I called the shots, but I grew tired of making decisions for others.  It's mentally taxing to solve other people's problems and going to hours and hours of redundant meetings.
I didn't sign up for all of this.

So I or should I say, we started our own thing.

Say hello to..

It's right here in Taiping and I'm mighty proud of it.
Business so far is good, alhamdulillah and the best part is we have time to go for a run every morning while other people are busy rushing off to clock in for work.

We're really starting off slow right now. When I say slow , I mean really s-s-s-l-l-l-o-o-o-w-w-w.
Serius, aunty jalan kaki pagi-pagi pon boleh potong kitorang.
But it's okay cause we're back to a mileage of  almost 25K a week and that's enough to make me happy thehe.

Pelan-pelan kayuh la kan?

This is what we want.
To run our lives and to be more with the kids.
We waited so patiently for this.
Doakan yang terbaik untuk kami, kay?

Kalau sape-sape singgah Taiping, give us a visit ye?

Friday, March 28, 2014


Do you really want to know the truth? The truth is, after giving birth the furthest I ran on road is 2KM. Sila gelak.

And the truth is, itu pun shekali shekala je on any given Sunday, kalau sempat.

The rest is, konon training atas treadmill je le. 20 minutes je. 2km jugak. Sila gelak lagi.
Takpelah kan, the very busy la kan kekononnya.

So when I was invited ( I put this kindly, BUT fact was I was psycho-ed)  to participate in KKM’s Jogathon Kesihatan, I wasn’t aiming for much. In fact, as I’m starting all over again, I would count every achievement as a PB.


Being absent from racing for such a long time, made me forget all the pre-race essentials. 

-          Didn’t warm up
-          Arrived late
-          Last minute fumble with hub’s Garmin ( God knows where mine is)
-          No pre-race jitters
-          No pre-race hydration

Apa pun yelek.

 Minutes after we parked, I lined up for my race bib and 5 minutes later, we were flagged off.

saya sebenarnya di Canada.

I started out good, pacing with my former KKM track teammate. Anndd.. that lasted for about 1 minute until she finally sped off- ha!

So I huffed alone trying to keep  up, panting, sides stitching, breathing labored and wondering over and over again why I get myself into these things.

I asked a RELA woman/girl minding the road for the correct turn at a junction. Naturally, she showed me the wrong way. Had to make a teeny weeny U-turn and again wished I was somewhere else eating a big fat ice cream cone.

I could see the first 3 runners in my category. The one in front of me kept looking back as I rolled my eyes thinking, “ Please, macamla ai cukup kudrat nak potong”

But somehow I kept my pace and managed to overtake the person in front of me. Tu pun sebab she slowed down to glance at her phone. Sempat lagi tuu..

Tapikan, on the last 300 m to the finish line, tetibe je muncul 2 orang dari belakang at full speed selamba je kasi  sayur sama beta.
Makcik pikir, lantak ko la, Gayah.

The most triumphant moment was seeing my family cheering at the end of the line and my kids screaming, “ We won! We won!” (When in fact, we got only 5th place-ha!)

Dalam ada dapur gas, in case you're wondering

Eh? Sikit je race report? Haha..yela..only 3 K maa. Oklah, 3.1K to exaggerate the actual distance in 18 min 47 sec.

I hope this will be the first of many, Walaupun rasanya, memang agak ketinggalan dari fitness dulu, but it’s a good start coming back.

That is, I sure do hope I’m coming back

Okla, kalau tak come back pun, new start la kan.

Like I said, from now, everything’s a PB
Oh, shut up already.

P/S On another note, my baby turns 1 year old next week!

Thursday, February 20, 2014


Great news, guys.
I' m back to train again.
But it's not a big race or anything so no, you won't see me during MWM.
I'm starting on a small, wait, scratch that, I'm starting on a miniscule scale.
Just something local, slightly insignificant but at least something la kan to start with.

So there will be no panic mode, no red buttons.
I will train when I can, the best with what I can work with.
These few weeks has been a roller coaster ride at work.
Buat exit plan bagus punya tup-tup I've been pushed up the ladder.
Takpe lah, layan je la.

Apa aku dok royan ni? Just saying from now to July I have to attend A LOT of meetings and travelling so semestinya training will go haywire.
But like I said, no red buttons.
Relax. Breathe. Try not to vent macam orang gila kat FB.
Eat, by all means, eaaatttt.
Work out.
And be happy.

And still be here.
Some people in the running community have moved wayyy forward, tak terkejor.
Some people pulak quietly took a step back and creeped quietly out of the picture.
But I will try to still be here.
Kalau orang takde nak baca pon, I will still update.
Not as frequent as before, these days but I'm still lingering.

Bear with me la kan.

Sekian royanan hari ini which by the way is written during a boooriiingg meeting.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

New Hopes!

Uish, gile lama tak menjengah sini.
Okay, I've been busy these past few weeks menguruskan anak-anak bersekolah,.
Plus, menguruskan one major project that's TBA in a few months ( saspen saspen).

Anyway, what date is it today? 9th?
Is it too late for me to list out the cliche? ie my resolutions.
Orang kata, why wait for the new year to start something new or to dream big or to plan on something?
Why wait for the perfect moment?
Aku kata, alah diamlah.

I plan to go back to racing. When? Well, I'm trying to find the perfect one to start with. Not too long of a distance since I've been taking a break for about a year. You know, just the perfect race to get the gear and momentum going.

I or we plan to get our boy in shape. For you guys who haven't seen my boy, well , he's a bit on the chubby side. Walaupun sedap dipeluk, but it's high time we do something about it.
Sometimes people like to take a jab at us using him, saying things like, " Kenapa mak bapak kurus, tapi anak chubby?"
And they say it right in front of him.
Not cool, guys.
Anyway, we got him to exercise 4-5 times weekly and fingers crossed, things will work out right.

Straighten out the house. Pronto.
No procrastinating. No dilly dallying.
This is serious.(hoho)

There will be some major changes jobwise and I plan to exit gracefully.
And I do hope that the grass is greener on the other side.
Wah, misterius.

There's still a lot.
But pelan pelan la kan
We better ourselves in increments.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Please Put It Down

Parents, please pay attention to your kids and take away whatever electronic gadgets  they have in their hands.

The irony is we want our children to catch up with technology but we revert them to their own little caves totally ignorant of their surroundings.

Children are supposed to explore, run, be curious, enjoy the outdoors.
Children should open up books and let imagination take hold.
Children should socialize with other kids, play and muck about like children they are.
Children should be able to tell you about their day and how awesome everything went.

Not sit around, engrossed with whatever it is on the iPad. For hours on end.
Be it, at a restaurant.
Near a beautiful beach or pool.
At their kampungs.
In a family function.
When people come over.
At a mall.
During a vacation.
In a family roadtrip.
Or even at home.

Don't let a gadget raise your children.
Your kid runs a tantrum and you hand him an iPad.
Your kid behaves and you hand him a tablet
Your kid is fidgety and you hand him your smartphone
Your kid can't socialize and you hand him his PSP.

A gadget is not a pacifier.
It is not a babysitter.
It can not, should not substitute you.

Whatever you teach your kid, would be more valuable that what you claim your tablet is able to teach your child.

Please don't say my kids can't survive a day without their electronic thingamajigs.
Not in a proud tone.
Not even in an apolegetic tone.

We grew up fine without.

Kids are getting angrier.
Stuck up.

Parents, get a grip.
Look at what you've turned your child into.
Take away the electronics.
Demand more respect.
Give them books.
Encourage them to look up and explore the world.
Help them make friends.
Teach them.
Play with them.
Talk to them.

I'm not being houlier than thou.
I'm not saying my children are better off.
But let's do this together.

Our children deserve more from us. From themselves.

We talk about making the world a better place for our children.
Why not make our children better people for the world.